June 22, 2011

My Mission: Sexy but Comfortable

I have a wedding to attend this weekend and I am so geeked to get all dolled up. Most of the time I am a jeans and tee shirt kind of girl but for a special occasion such as this, I feel it's only necessary to go all out.

So here's what I've got goin on....

I have these two dresses to decide from:



I originally bought the black dress for a company photo but after buying it and trying it on, I realized it was a little too sexy for work.

The red one is made of this very thin material and hugs the curves nicely but puts a little too much emphasis on the buddha belly.

Which one do you like more?

Now for hair, I'm going with something simple but glamorous:


I love this style. Classy but sexy.

For makeup, I'm really impressed with this girl's tutorial. She does a number of videos where she transforms herself into men, celebrities and people who look nothing like her.




Now for shoes, I am completely lost. I just want to be comfortable and not break a hip. I still have a few days to decide but I guess it depends on what dress I choose.

Very excited to get out there and have some fun.

It seems like life has been all work and no play.

Well this weekend....I PLAY

June 20, 2011

The ladybug and the onion

I stopped at the store to buy some green onion and there was a ladybug sitting on one of the bundles. It caught me by surprise and I suddenly felt like this little kid that couldn't stop smiling. “Come here little guy”, I said as I playfully tried to get the ladybug to climb onto my finger.


I can’t help but laugh when I think about the people that were around me. I’m sure they didn’t see the ladybug and thought I was just some crazy woman in a store talking to onions.


The ladybug apparently was scared of my midget hands and took off down the never ending onion tunnel. I placed the bundle in a bag and took her home so that she could live happily ever after in a pot of flowers. When I got home I shook her out of the bag and into the flowers. I figured I could use some good luck and she could use a better home. The next day all of the flowers that were beginning to die came back to life....no joke. I guess she did bring a little luck with her!

After my flowers starting blooming like that, I wanted to know why and I wanted to see if ladybugs have little who whos....

After all, how am I supposed to know if the ladybug is really a lady?

I found out that not all ladybugs are girls and that it’s nearly impossible for the average person to tell them apart. The girls are usually larger and a male ladybug can be seen when they grab the female’s elytra (It just means hard wings but it sounds dirty) and holds on tight.

So pretty much if it wasn’t for their size or them getting their hump on, we would never know.

As for my flowers blooming like crazy, turns out that ladybugs eat aphids which are little soft bodied insects that feed on plants. Ladybugs can eat as many as 50 aphids a day. So the ladybug killed the little crappers that were killing my flowers. Now I have a friend and pretty flowers. Win Win J

June 14, 2011

Mommy: To be or not to be...that is the question.

My husband and I were married a little less than a year ago. We have loved each other for a very long time and we decided to start our family by vowing to love each other for the rest of our lives.

It wasn’t long after the wedding when people started asking that magic question:

“So, when are you guys going to have kids?”

At first, it kind of pissed me off. We had just got married and people were already asking this question. I felt like saying:

“What the hell is a marriage? Chopped Liver?

It’s almost as if people believe you get married just so you can have children. I don’t know where people get this kind of idea but I’m guessing it’s from the same “closed-minded world” that believes marriage is limited to a man and a woman. I believe you should be able to marry/love whomever you want....but that is a whole other subject.

One day, while at the store, a lady overheard me say that I was just married and the first thing she says:

“So, when are you going to start a family?”

I didn’t know this woman and that just struck me as such a rude thing to say to someone you don’t even know. I wanted to put her in her place so bad but I kept my composure and just said “marriage is starting a family” and went on my way.

The majority of my friends have children and I honestly believe that most of them were born to be mothers. They are great teachers and their love and admiration for their children gives them a reward and sense of happiness that nothing else could.

But, is it for me?

I have to admit, my baby maker flutters every time I see a newborn baby or pictures of my friends’ children doing something phenomenal such as taking their first steps or learning to read.

Children are beautiful.  

They have such a wonderful imagination, a charming innocence and they smell like heaven.

I just have this dream of doing BIG things. Maybe own a business that makes a difference somehow or successfully operate an organization that saves the world a little at a time. Does that mean that being a mother is out of the question? I don’t know...maybe? Can you do it all? Possibly...      

If I don’t have children, will I regret it later on in life? Who knows?

We still have plenty of time to consider the options. We are in no hurry because we love our life the way it is right now and there is so much we want to do before we have babies.

Seeing as I married the extraordinary man that I did, I feel like it would be a shame not to. He would make such an amazing father and together we could teach our children so much.

I believe my husband and I as parents would start out looking a bit like the movie “Away We Go". That movie reminds me so much of us.

We are good people and our future is filled with endless possibilities. If there is a way to have it all....then I will find it! In the mean time it feels good to get these feelings off my chest.

For anyone who has not seen the movie "Away We Go", I have attached the movie trailer below. This movie is a must see for sure!


June 8, 2011

Grandma's House

This is my Grandmother's home.


I love this house because I have so many memories here. My Grandmother lived in Mexico and came to America seeking the “American Dream” and this house represents her success in finding it.

My Grandmother is a strong, intelligent, selfless woman and everything she has taught me has made me a better person. She lost her husband at a very young age and never chose to love another man. She bought this home, where she lived alone and I often spent holidays here as a child. I’m writing this post because her home is currently on the market and I never want to forget the times that I spent here.

The Tornado – Age 7


We once hid under this bed while a tornado struck the trees surrounding the house. I remember her trying to keep me calm as she trembled with fear. I held her hand for a while and I remember writing prayers down on a piece of paper...like we were sending “live” messages to God. After the storm, we went outside to observe the damage and it was pretty bad. Trees had been uprooted; there was no power, no water and a substantial amount of roof damage. For days, we would walk down to the lake and load large buckets with water. Blisters covered our hands as we made the journey back to her home and we spent the next couple days eating cantaloupe for dinner. We were happy to have survived the storm.

Stones


Every stone surrounding my Grandmother’s home was hand picked by her, her children and her grandchildren. The stones, for me, represent so much more than a stone. My grandma has always seen the beauty in little things. She wouldn’t just pick up any stone, and this wasn’t just a landscaping project. This was more of a labor of love. I remember the way she would examine each stone with such precision and she could always find beauty in a single flaw. It was as if every stone were a personal achievement and everything about her house, a reflection of her.


Go Carts, Water Park, Art Stores and the Year Round Haunted House

Every time we would come up, my Grandmother would always take us out for ice cream. We would often end up at the go carts, the water park or at the haunted house. My favorite was the haunted house. It was open all year round and exploring that old farm house never got old. The “Tales of the Crypt” character greeted you as you entered and as soon as you turned the corner, there was a chain saw coming through this wooden door. I knew what to expect but every time I went, the chain saw guy would send me running up these stairs covered in ugly green carpet. The rooms on the second floor were somewhat cheesy but it was always so fun and they had an arcade right next door. She often took us to these little shops that sold hand made art. You couldn’t help but find your creative side when entering one of these stores. A peaceful happiness would come over you as the smell of wood filled the air. She was never too crazy about the haunted house, but to her, these stores were definitely a treat. I loved everything about them and how happy it made her.

My Grandmother’s Bed


When I was a child I would always sleep in my Grandmother’s bed with her. My Grandma would always make the bed by turning the sheets inside out (which I never understood) but they were the softest sheets and she would stay up watching the news while I would slowly fall asleep with her dog at my feet. I will never forget my Grandma’s flowery smell and the Jesus in thorns that hung over her bedroom door.

My Last Visit

My last visit to her home was a couple years ago. My husband (who was then my fiancĂ©) and I headed up north to see my Grandma. The very first day we went into town and stopped at this diner that has the most amazing ribs and homemade ice cream. I remember my parents taking me there and how much I loved it, so I had to take the husband. As we were walking inside, they had random pieces of art for sale strewn across the walls. I stumbled across this plaque that read “Men are like fish. They get themselves in trouble when they open their mouth”. I chuckled and headed to the counter to pick up our food. We headed back to my Grandma's with pretty much every dish on the menu. When we got to her home, I laid out every meal that was ordered. My Grandma insisted she wasn’t hungry but proceeded to dive into everything. We all smiled and filled our bellies with delicious goodness.

The next morning my Grandmother made chorizo and eggs for breakfast. We all shared a traditional Mexican breakfast together (my husband’s first) and shortly after my husband left on his motorcycle to explore the trails. He made it half way through the first trail before the Mexican breakfast set in. He stumbled upon a sign that had an arrow pointing into the woods that read “bathroom”. At first I’m sure he thought this sign was some kind of joke but by this time he was desperate and decided to follow the sign. He rode a short ways in when he came to the cleanest porta-john he had ever seen sitting in the middle of nowhere. The way he explains it makes me picture this glorious glowing light surrounding the porta-john almost as if it was a god send and maybe in this case it was. He came back and told us this story and we laughed historically for (what seemed like) hours.

While he was gone, my Grandmother and I bonded like never before. She told me stories about my Grandfather and her life in Mexico. I always wondered about my Grandfather. When I was a child, I remember sneaking into her bottom drawer to look at photos of him. I learned a lot about my family that day. Looking at my Grandmother, I could picture her as a young spanish beauty gazing out the window as she seeked her one true love. This visit had to be the most memorable and rewarding. There was only one other trip that could compare. It was Thanksgiving and it was the only time in my life where my whole family was together under one roof....and we didn’t kill each other.




When we arrived home from our last visit up north, my husband surprised me with that silly plaque that I saw in the restaurant. It was a really nice surprise and great way to remember my last visit.

My Grandmother now lives with my father and I plan to visit her very soon. I will never forget this home, the memories we shared or the amount of love my Grandma put into it.